Up Early on a Holiday?

I am up early to hit the gym. The things I do to gain a preemptive strike against Thanksgiving weight gain.

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Climbing the Stairs

I just climbed 2 flights of stairs, huffing and puffing like a locomotive. It's a sad fact that I've gotten so fat that I have the stamina of a corpse. it will be interesting to see whether it will get easier by the end of the week if I do this everyday.

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These rules apply to everyone but me!

One of my coworkers is a really hard-nosed conservative. She hates people that take more than their share, and is a hard-ass against people that do not follow the rules.

So why is it, when invited to a screening and told she could only have one guest, she brought her husband, her daughters, and a friend? It was a real struggle for me to keep from saying anything.

That's generally been my experience with hard-lined conservatives. They have one set of rules that they want others to follow, but are not above breaking the rules or wanting an exception for themselves.

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Give Away

My father gave my new cell number to his crazy, user friend. I really wish he would refrain from giving that fool access to me.

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Absence of Communication

Peter just sent me a text to see how I was doing. It was deleted without a response. It's not that I am some vengeful wench. It's just that I have nothing to say to someone who's response to a request for a relationship is a pity fuck.
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Hungry

Today is Day Two of my 3-Day, Nine-Pound Diet. Since it's a starvation diet - half a piece of toast and 1 egg for breakfast - I am hungry.

Still, I am rather "desperate" to loose the weight. I have been disastified for a while, and this is one of the changes I want to make.

At a minimum, I anticipate that it should expose me to a better class of male. It's clear from my experience with Peter and "G" that this is what I need.

I had forgotten I had this meal plan in my files. I am sorry I did not do it while I was off work.

Stil, I just weighed in at the doctor's office. There has been a definite improvement so I would say it's been worth it.

My goal this month was to be down to 280, and I was only going higher. I am hoping that this diet once a month, plus switching to Whole Foods, will keep me on track.
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Mixed Messages

I heard from Peter after I sent him a message expressing my confusion. I invited him for my birthday. He came out for about 40 hours and then left. I have not heard from him since.

I told him that I was attracted to him and wanted a relationship. He flew out as a one-time visit because I have been so stressed and he felt sorry for me. While I am impressed that he spent $500 to fly across country and cheer me up, I'd rather not be an object of pity.

I hate it when I misjudge someone's character. One of the reasons I liked Peter was because I felt he was thoughtful and genuine. Clearly, this was not true.

What is the point?

George keeps poking me on Facebook, and yet he does not return phone calls. I wish he would stop trying to waste my time.
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Tranported

The bus that I take to work in the morning rarely has more than 9 people on it. Today was no exception, even with the homeless passenger that the driver let on.

Why was it, with a nearly-empty bus, the crazy and stinky homeless man came to sit right behind me?

To his credit, the bus driver - eventually - yelled at the guy to move up front (where there was no one sitting) or get off the bus.
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On the Down Low

I take the train work. At the stop just before my station, there is a message that flashes by. It's an automated screen with a blue background and dark text.

We go by much too fast for me to read it; the only way it would be visible was if the train were not in motion. Since, it's between stops, I am pretty sure it's supposed to be subliminal advertising.

Since I discovered the existence of the ad, I make sure to keep my nose buried in a book so that I miss the message.

Making Updates

I seem to have acquired the ancient Chinese curse of having an interesting life so it's galling that there are not more updates.

I think the primary problem is that this is an anonymous blog. I change names, but too many details would still mean that - if anyone I knew stumbled across this - it could be traced back to me.

Weight Check - January 30, 2010

Current Weight: 293.5 pounds
This Week’s Weight Gain or Loss: 1.5 pounds down
Goal Weight: 140 pounds
Goal for Next Week: 5.5 pounds

Weight Check - January 9, 2010

Current Weight: 294 pounds
This Week’s Weight Gain or Loss: 3 pounds down
Goal Weight: 140 pounds
Goal for Next Week: 3 pounds

Get Your Own Task!

The one thing that amazes me the most about working to take care of a parent is the number of people that have no clue how to truly be helpful. If there are 15 tasks to do, and I am working on one of them, then helping me means picking an unattended task – not picking my current project and mucking with it.

My father has finally agreed to the disposal of items in his storage unit. Prior to this, he was holding on to everything that was not stolen by the crack head because he wanted something to leave my brother and I when he dies. My brother and I are not interested.

Anyway, I was finally able to convince him to sell everything in the storage unit. I found the name of a company that specializes in this sort of thing. They sell everything that can be sold and donate what cannot.

Before I could set up an appointment, my father called to let me know that one of his friends would be handling this. It’s irritating because his friends never follow-through and always muck things up and cause more problems then they solve.

Really, I thought I had finally convinced him to stop helping me. I guess not.

Strangeness in the Elevator

I am fortunate enough to work at a company with great benefits, which includes an on site car wash. This may not seem like a big deal, but it gives me back at least one hour on my weekend to be able to do this at work.

I typically drop my car off in the morning and pick it back up at lunch. There were two gentlemen in business suits in the elevator when I got on to go down to the garage. Ours is a strictly casual company so I’ll assume they were either sales representatives or interviewing for a job.

Man in Suit #1: Hello there.
Me: Hi
Man in Suit #1: Would you like a hug?
Me: (taken aback) No thank you
Man in Suit #1: Aw, come on (grabs me and gives me a hug). We’re from Texas; we’re friendly.

I’ve been to Texas. I have friends from Texas. I seriously doubt that, in state where carrying guns is as normal as carrying around a pen to write with, people go around grabbing strangers for a hug.

Love Lines

George never returned any of my phone calls.

Peter ended up flying out at the last minute for my birthday. Things seemed promising while he was here, but I’ve not heard from him since.

I reconnected with Bren, whom I went out with once three years ago. It’s interesting how people remember things. Bren accused me of standing him up twice. As I remember it, he and I had a date. He called to say he would be late. 45 minutes later – and long after the original start time of our date – he called to say he was not coming.